25.5.05

weird dream, political aspirations?

i had the weirdest dream last night. i dreamt that i was tom cruise's latest heart throb, and not "what's her name" katie holmes. he was so enamored with me after only 48 hours of contact that he asked me to move into his 2nd house, which was just a block away from his 1st house, so he could walk down the street and around the corner whenever he wanted to see me. he even played hooky on monday and tuesday of this week just so he could spend extra time with me. i even thought his stubble was sexy! weird huh? seeing that i've never shown any, sexual or otherwise, interest in him, he's too short for me. either my subconscious is trying to tell me that just not the case, or it's the blood thinners talking.

on another note, my hubby and i had this lengthy discussion last night about current political issues, which is something we hardly ever do seeing as i vehemently despise politics, they have a tedency to give me a headache. politicians make it so much more complicated then it has to be and i know they do it on purpose just to confuse the lesser educated masses. but my hubby enticed my by challenging my ego. he made me aware of michael eric dyson's recent attack on bill cosby's comments about america's poor black community on leno (or letterman, i don't remember which, look it up). he accused cosby of being "classist, elitist, and rooted in generational warfare." I get so pissed whenever i hear someone complain about a black celebrity not doing enough and not giving back to their community. I'm tired of people complaining that cosby, with all his fame, money and power, didn't do enough to make this country more aware of the struggle, discrimination and poverty of african americans, or as my husband put it "not making 'the inequalities of race' a national question." that wasn't the point of his show, it was a sitcom for god sake. i believe he wanted to make people laugh and, for 30 minutes out of a day, help them forget about their struggles and disenchantment.

if i hear one more person say that cosby didn't present the reality of the black family and community in american society i swear i'm going to scream. if these critics would sit down for five minutes with their mouths shut and listen to what cosby has to say, really listen, they'd realize that he' s only trying to say that we can't blame 'the man' for everything, it is partially our fault too. the whole point of his show was to make americans, especially white americans, aware of the fact that all blacks weren't ghetto welfare baby mamma's and dead beat baby daddy's dealing drugs. he wanted to show american's that their are blacks out their making something of themselves and raising their families to be good citizens, and doing a damn good job of it, and that you need to respect blacks because as a people we have the potential to be better. which ties into the point he tried to make on that late night talk show. he said the problem is that too many blacks, not all blacks, are not trying hard enough.

i happened to be raised in and atmosphere very similar to that of the cosby children. i grew up in the 80's and 90's embracing and embodying his sitcom. i am only a year younger than 'rudy' and my brother was 'olivia's' age. i identified with that show so much in fact that i used to pretend rudy and i were playmates! My father is a doctor although my mother was a stay at home mom. if i hear one more person claim that the family/life that was portrayed in dr. cosby's show DID NOT exist, i'm going to sit them down and give them a blow by blow recount of my entire 24 years of life with references and comparisons to key episodes of the show till they can't see straight.

my attitude is you can sit and theorize, and write as many books as you want, but don't start pointing fingers unless you can prove that you've done more than the person you're pointing fingers at and given back as much as you possibly can. take the fame you gotten from your news talk show guest spots, the fortune you've made from the millions of copies of books you've sold and guest lectures you given, and put your money where your theory is. we can waggle are lips till the cows come home, hell freezes over, and the world ends, but it will not be enough. we need action if anything is to change.

that's my two cents for the day, 'cause now i have a headache.

18.5.05

a week in the life....

i've been complaining to my husband about not having anything interesting to talk about on my new blog. i warn all of you, Be Careful What You Wish For! i just spent the last week in the hospital. the good news, it's not spinal meningitis. the bad news, they still don't know what it is. all they can tell me is that it's some "unknown" viral infection and that it appears that my body is dealing with it on it's own.
to coin a phrase from fox mulder, i feel like i've "lost times." a whole week of my life was lost while in the confines of "st. dominic's " walls. I was poked with a needle so many time they ran out of places to poke me. the "aids" we're reduced to taking my vitals from my left calf because my arms were no longer of any use. due to the hospitals negligence, i'll be on blood thinners for 3 months in order to reduce a blood clot in my left forearm, which means my husband won't allow me to even cook dinner during this period because of my inability to handle a knife without cutting myself.
i've lost 2 weeks of work and i can't drink soda right now cause it burns when it goes down. and to top it all off i went to have blood drawn today to check my levels and was poked 3 times with no results. plus the antibiotic that is suppose to be improving my health is causing me a horribly itchy rash.

I just wanna thank dobee, my cousin, for taking time out of her life to take care of me for most of this week 'cause my husband dearly needed a break and i hope i can be there for her when she needs me. i know i'm not the most pleasant patient.

I just want things to go back to boring normal and i promise i won't complain about it this time.

6.5.05

a dinner date...

my husband and i went to this awesome Japanese steakhouse and sushi bar this evening called "stix." the food was great, and the decor was beautiful. sherman even tried some sushi and he HATES anything raw. for desert we had the "fat sumo sundae" which had been rolled in fried coconut, and was to die for. 'bout the only disappointment was the fortune cookies. why don't they make fortune cookies with fortunes in them anymore. i'm not looking to play the lottery anytime in the near future so don' t really need any lucky #'s.

like my new profile pic? i knew you would :)


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me, not normal?





You Are 40% Normal

(Somewhat Normal)









While some of your behavior is quite normal...

Other things you do are downright strange

You've got a little of your freak going on

But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself



found this website with a couple of fun personal surveys. i always knew i was a little off, this just proves it.

5.5.05


this is me on the beach last week, my husband took this photo. he's pretty good huh :) Posted by Hello

hello world

Figured it was about time i got with the program and joined the millions of bloggers out there. So this is me, and my thoughts and I hope you frequent frequently :)